Finding Faith is that book that came about after frustration and anger took its toll. I actually started writing this one during my Job experience, but put it down when the death of my Mom became too much to bare. I thought I knew what faith was, I thought I was faithing it right…but I was still miserable and uncertain about my future. I thought faith, meant perfection and never wavering…but what I learned was that faith is not about doing everything right, it is about standing on the word of God and the patience to await His promises coming to pass in our lives. The things we go through build our trust in Him.

Life happens! When Awaken the Dream was birthed. I was in the midst of what I thought was my Job experience. I found myself unemployed for the first time, lost my home, and grieving the death of my mother. I was in a pit of depression and despair. I was ready to give up on my dreams and my life. God had to literally pick me up and remind me of not only who I was, but whose I was and His plan for me.

This book was my first encounter of the tough love of God. I learned that His love, regardless of how powerful it is, will not allow Him to give you something out of season. I was miserable being single, and as the saying goes, “misery loves company” I was making everyone around me miserable as well. I soon discovered that the key to my happiness was not a MAN but it was healing from the past.

The love I knew and saw beat my mother, molested me, bullied me, incarcerated my brother, addicted my mother to drugs and alcohol, used me, abused me, and left me with a trail of shame, regret and unworthiness. The love I knew was a liar and did more harm than good. I needed to be reprogrammed. I needed to be healed. I couldn’t love anyone, including myself, until I released the blame, learned to forgive and allowed God to heal the broken places.