What do you do when the weight of the calling is too heavy for you to carry? When you want to run? When you want to give up? When you want to be regular? When the Spirit Man is stretching you but the flesh is rebelling? Why can’t you be regular? Just go to work, travel, hang out with friends, get married, have a few children, a big house, with a picket fence and dog?
I knew I was destined to be something great in grade school when I beat up a classmate for making fun of my friend who had just returned to school after having her breast removed. I found it strange that at 13, when the Planned Parenthood teacher came to the projects, and after she talked to us about safe sex I took over her class to break it down in laymen’s terms. I thought it cruel that at 14, my friends told me “all the girls are doing it, you’re the only virgin” to trick me into having sex, only to find out I was the first in the group and doing so gave them permission to follow my footsteps.
Many people choose their profession, but as believers, followers of Christ, purpose chooses you. Purpose prepares you and purpose overtakes you the moment you say Yes! Purpose never told you it’s not about you, but it’s about the people connected to you and the people whom through you will experience the love and compassion of God.
God never told you, you had to do it alone. He never told you, you had to BE everything. His only provision was obedience. The pressure, the uncertainty, and the doubt are weighted heavily upon you because you are trying to do it alone: in your own wisdom and in your own understanding. Do what you can, do what you were instructed to do and let Him do what you cannot. When you realize you CANNOT, then God can take over. Let Him do it His way.
Proverbs 16:9 A man’s heart plans his way, but the Lord directs his steps.
Proverbs 3:6 In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths
Luke 12: 48 And to whomsoever much is given, of him shall much be required: and to whom they commit much, of him will they ask the more
Philippians 1:6 being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.